i love how all the friends i'm always there for when they need me just kinda forget about me when i'm going through the worst times...it's proved to happen everytime i've needed my friends to put a little effort in, and instead they just don't care.
one example would be when i had surgery and i was in bedrest for a week and none of my best friends that i do anything for came to see me,
and another would be now.
so that's great, maybe i should learn from all this and just start being a shitty friend too? sounds good.

okay well if you know me you know i'm obsessed with ancient egypt and i wanted a chihuahua so i could name him anubis, so when i was coming up with pug names was thinking of egyptian deities because i think i want my pup to have an egyptian name, so vote for your favorite!


Nuphis (newfis)-means "the good companion"
Bes-Protects children/childbirth...but lookwise he reminds me of a pug out of all the deities of egypt so that's why that name's in there
Geb-God of earth, one of the most important gods...my pug will be very important
Heka-god of magic
annd i think my favorite might bee
Shay-the idea of destiny, the god of lifespan, fate and fortune,
and considering this woman is giving him to me because her daughter has lukemia and she wants to keep the memory of her alive, i think that's cute
oh and
Walt (full name would be walt dinsey haha)
and abu
or casanova (in memory of heath, when he played casanova in the movie Casanova) his nickname could be cass or cassi


so message me with your favorite name!

to go on vacation.
but i don't want to go to go out and drink and socialize i want to go alone to get away from everyone. I want to go to egypt. without my phone i'm starting to hate my sidekick i don't want to talk to anyone anymore.
I want to not be depressed anymore, i'm going to lose all my friends because i have no interest in seeing anyone or doing anything, i've turned down so many parties, including the ones going on in my apartment while i sleep through them. i don't know what's wrong with me, i've never been this depressed and i wish it would end and everything would get better.

The apartment's clean!
we cleaned for hours yesterday and it's clean :) i love it so much i'm so much less stressed when it's clean haha.
i cleaned my mom's house for her yesterday too, she was so happy :)

schoool today was dumb i haaate tuesdays, there's too many old ladies and i was ticket runner and NO ONE wanted any tickets! not even cut and colors! i would jump on a cut and color on a tuesday so i wouldn't get a perm!
the girls are so stubborn!
and i hate going to class..i would soo much rather be on teh floor taking clients all day. I wish they would just let us become creatives so we could go to class in the morning...if the classes are overflowing then they shouldn't have so many girls in the school! >:o

Buuut after the gym i saw courtnie called me and i called her back and she told me that she knows someone who's daughter has lukemia so she is breeding minerature pugs and giving them to good homes to keep the memory of her daughter alive.
sooooooo
mandy's getting a minerature pug in a month! he's not even ready to leave muma yet!
ahhhhhhh i'm sooo excited, that was the best phone call i've had ever! sanasaaaa!
the tiny face is going to be real!! ahhfhejkagljkerheale
i hope i don't get caught and thrown out of the apartment.
wah wah wah i don't think i will but it would suck if i did...
umm that's all i can think about i probably won't be able to sleep until i get the pug...i can't even handle it that tinyy miserable chaotic squished face!
WHAT SHOULD I NAME HIM?! i want a boy so give me names! he neeeds a cute name, i like the ones nicole richie comes up with, foxy cleopatra and honey child..i want one like that.

sanasaaaa


SHALOM





oh and alsoooooo
these are the photos i chose for my modeling port to print

tell me if you think there are some i should takeout/add
thanks!

Sleep over with jake last night! it was so cute, i went to pick him up from my dad's and he liked me, and we headed to the apartment and he was so cute i thuoght he'd be kinda scared and not really happy but he was nad he did all his tricks and me and nige treated around with him, but he woke me up at 5:30 and 7 to go out >:o
i still need a pug though, The apartment is so much happier with a pup there, it's so much cuter i want to keep jake, but he barked a few times, and he barks really loud so i deffinitely think i'd get caught with him, Not a pug though!
I did nige's hair again it came out really cute. sanasaaa

so we woke up for the walkathon today, that i got a total of $400 worth of donations, and got jake all excited for, and we get there, it's freeezing cold, so everyone from paul mitchell the school decides to cut it short and instead of walking like 3 miles we walked probably a total of a half a mile. hahaha i love paul mitchell.
so now jakes sad, and i kinda wanna take him to the beach but it's so cold idk ahh! too scared. I might though. I have to take him to my little cousins party at four too, adn i have to go see my dad soon even though he's been such a prick lately i can't even handle him >:o

SHALOM

Ahh i'm so tired and it's only 10:00

my sidekick is always broken >:O i'm getting another one sent to me, i had two new ones sent to me in february because they broke...and now another one

school on saturday should be illegal. but i probably wouldn't do anything better with my time.
I have to wake up at 6:45 for the gym though cause they close at 5:30 on saturdays? gay. i just got home from the gym too i'm beat.

vanessa's drunk already haha

our fucking electric bill was $93!! whaaat is that! i don't have $30 to spend on electricity! no moh lights, we're living on candlelight from now on, no joke!

i'm so sick of having no internet! going in an out ahh i'm going insane!
i went shopping today for a few things i need and it just made me depressed because i remembered how broke i am, but i got a cinderella notebook at the disney store and really cute pencil skirt for only $10, AND it's long enough, it goes past my knees so i won't get a "fashion sitation" from paul mitchell for my skirt being to short. hahaha i love that school.
i'm tired and bored and dunzooo. jake tomorrow night i'm so excited for the SMASH sanasaaaa


SHALOM

Well Vanessa left for Fall River all night and I didn't go with her so I made this instead. Cause we have no cable, and we live in cranston, and there's absolutely nothing to do and i want to kill myself this apartment is so boring.
i just need to go get a pug and everything will be okay
i'd probably never leave the apartment, unless he could come with me.
i also gotta get over this pug thing cause i have no job=no money=no pug :(
plus the apartment doesn't allow pups, but i can deffinitely get away with that


ahh i'm so bored. >:o
I haven't drank alcohol in over two weeks. i don't know what's wrong with me lately, I'm so boring.
it's way easier getting up/going to/staying in school though since i haven't been drinking.. but i should drink saturday, but i probably won't because jake will be here haha i'm so gay.